the sun began its morning rise
and its rays pierced the room
I traced the contours of her skin
knowing separation would come soon

I opened myself to her
and she left my heart undone
venturing out fulfill her fate
because for her, I was not the one

her kisses echo still in my mind
whispering melodies of what we shared
songs of what was not meant to be
because even angels can be scared

she took my sense of security
left me wanting what’s been missing
I can’t pretend it’s all bad
because even pain can be a blessing

I still feel her skin on my fingertips
teasing the senses that knew her love
remembering the softness of her body
the one sent to me from above

this game, that game
still the same result
and when you stand alone
you alone will be at fault

another round of touch and go
twist the truth and hide the lies
so hard to see the motive
when staring in an angels eyes

is she playing hard to get
or impossible to please
no point in chasing hope again
it will not bring you peace

beg for mercy, beg for more
in this game you always lose
blame your past, or what you will
it’s not you that she will choose

check mate, game over
your only choice is try again
flip a coin, roll the dice
give this life another spin

no other way out
the way I see it
easy way to leave
it’s the end, so be it

gun powder surprise
the sound so pleasant
instant pain exodus
give me my final present

I burst into laughter
They burst into tears
no more need to worry
no more need for fears

birdshot, buckshot
makes no difference
same painless result
still a messy incident

no more to worry about
yet a morbid sight to see
the others, the may suffer
but no more pain for me

leave behind the burden
of what once got me down
I’ll not feel the pain again
when in my own blood, I drown.

when a love was betrayed
in exchange lustful opportunity,
did you hear it?

when Thanksgiving memories
were replaced with holiday nightmares,
did you hear it?

when heartfelt words crossed lips
and promises were broken,
did you hear it?

when evening turned to overnight
and worried calls were left ignored,
did you hear it?

when we lied together in our bed
and I longed for reconciliation,
did you hear it?

when rooms were cleared of belongings
while you lied with him in our bed,
did you hear it?

while the two of you pretended to sleep
and our home was made empty
Did you hear my heart break?

Did you hear it? Did you?

why she didn’t wait and wear a smile we’ll never know
loves for the wrong reasons, still she isn’t happy though
live to love another life and have some room to grow
maybe choose another lover with feelings he will show

someday soon she’ll see that her solutions somewhat clear
know that there’s a better choice for her so very near
pick the pieces up and fix the picture, shed a tear
maybe for the moment I’ll just pour myself a beer